Non-typical post-camp entry
Last week was SuperWeek - PBC First Week 2009. We had a fantastic week. What a blessing to be a part of it and see it continue to evolve under new leadership.
My usual thought process in the week after camp has been that last week I was doing things of long-term significance, and this week, not so much. That is not my mindset this year. I think a lot of this change is due to my reduced role in the week. The weeks where I was Worship Director were some of the most enjoyable weeks for me. This week was good, but was not the spiritual high for me that it has been in the past. I'd prefer to be able to explain the difference, but I'm just not sure what it is.
My biggest contribution last week was probably the Samson skit. I hope the Friday morning chapel talk was of some value as well. I sang bass on the Praise Team for most of the week.
Perhaps the root issue here is pride. I have always been proud of our week of camp, and proud of my role in it. I think it isn't as much "our" week as it once was. With intent and purpose the "older generation" (*my* generation) has worked to hand off SuperWeek to another generation - and they're doing very well with it. But I must admit that I miss being involved in the planning and being involved at a deeper level in the execution of the week. I'm looking for my next role at SuperWeek. I don't think I'm ready to slip completely into the background - ego-wise, I certainly want to think I have other value to add than a completely background role. I'm pretty sure I need to humble myself and just be used as needed. I *am* working toward my dreams of improving the camp facilities, but that is several years away.
I was especially pleased this year that we had a larger Burnt Hickory contingent at PBC. I hope it grows each year.
I suppose that's enough for now. Lunch break is over - back to work!
My usual thought process in the week after camp has been that last week I was doing things of long-term significance, and this week, not so much. That is not my mindset this year. I think a lot of this change is due to my reduced role in the week. The weeks where I was Worship Director were some of the most enjoyable weeks for me. This week was good, but was not the spiritual high for me that it has been in the past. I'd prefer to be able to explain the difference, but I'm just not sure what it is.
My biggest contribution last week was probably the Samson skit. I hope the Friday morning chapel talk was of some value as well. I sang bass on the Praise Team for most of the week.
Perhaps the root issue here is pride. I have always been proud of our week of camp, and proud of my role in it. I think it isn't as much "our" week as it once was. With intent and purpose the "older generation" (*my* generation) has worked to hand off SuperWeek to another generation - and they're doing very well with it. But I must admit that I miss being involved in the planning and being involved at a deeper level in the execution of the week. I'm looking for my next role at SuperWeek. I don't think I'm ready to slip completely into the background - ego-wise, I certainly want to think I have other value to add than a completely background role. I'm pretty sure I need to humble myself and just be used as needed. I *am* working toward my dreams of improving the camp facilities, but that is several years away.
I was especially pleased this year that we had a larger Burnt Hickory contingent at PBC. I hope it grows each year.
I suppose that's enough for now. Lunch break is over - back to work!
posted by MichaelPolutta at 11:17 AM
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